Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Welp...here it is. It's Go Time.

“He’d had it all along. Planned it to a tee. Didn’t mean for it to be complicated. Wasn’t interested in a flawless delivery. Didn’t even need it to be great. Any jar of clay would do because anything happening on the visible platform was virtually incidental…as long as it didn’t quench the Spirit. All God had in mind to do was cut through the layers of technology until we could see straight into the beating heart of the Gospel: Jesus Christ can change your life.

That’s it. Plain and simple.

I love the mysterious side of God. I love that we can’t figure Him out. I love that He honors us by choosing us and humbles us by not even needing us. I love that He is wholly beyond formulas and manipulations, because goodness knows I’m not.

I love Him.

So, what do we do with all of this since we don’t know one iota more than we did? Just keep doing what we’re called to do. In season. Out of season. When we feel good. When we don’t. Believe Him to do something huge. Trust Him when you can’t even tell He did something small. Keep your heart in it and your big head out of it.

He’s the only one who can make it happen. As for us, we don’t even know what “it” is.

“The Lord our God has secrets known to no one. We are not accountable for them, but we and our children are accountable forever for all that he has revealed to us.”

Deuteronomy 29:29 NLT”-Beth Moore, Living Proof Blog

Today is the morning of my first Glorious Daughters Chick Chat and I started out as a nervous wreck. I’ve been so busy with life and I am so afraid that I haven’t prepared properly and good enough. Afraid I am going to miss the Divine Word that the precious Lord would want to share. I woke up worked up and anxious that I had so much to share that nothing would end up coming out right or even making some semblance of an educated thought. I have a swirling of ideas and games, desserts and napkin placement rollin’ through my brain on high speed. What a tizzie the Lord found me in when I walked outside early this morning with my monster cup of coffee, tossed hair, anxious thoughts and flopped open my Bible. He had His work cut out for Him this A.M. :)…

And then comes the Jesus I can hardly believe I know. The Jesus with a word so divinely appointed I will NEVER forget it and from a woman that He has chosen to use a thousand times in my life. In no way am I comparing myself to her or to the works that God has called her to do, however I am receiving the word spoken through her by the Holy Spirit to encourage my anxious heart that was tempted to be very overwhelmed today.  I know she would never remember me from the OSU Women’s Conference almost 10 years ago and laying hands on a small circle of college girls, me being in that circle sobbing because it was “a burning bush moment” for me. I will never forget her words, “I pray that greater works than these women’s ministry works would be done by this next generation of daughters”. I have never forgotten that moment, and honestly have only shared that experience with that small group of Bible study girls, a few mentors, my mother and my husband. Having Beth Moore pray such an anointed charge over our lives was humbling beyond explanation and definitely beyond what clever wording I could come up with on a blog.

Glorious Daughters is so very precious to my heart. I feel the need to be incredibly vulnerable and honest this morning about my heart and passion for Glorious Daughters. Maybe even a little sloppy and if it doesn’t make sense, that’s okay I just need to get it out. Because it isn’t about Glorious Daughters as a ministry or some sort of achievement, or culmination of events and experiences in my life….no Glorious Daughters is about having been radically redeemed and saved by a Merciful, Magnificent, Lavishly Loving and Extravagant King and I cannot be silent. It’s about me being a “leprous woman of sorts” (2 Kings 6-7:3) and recognizing I have been given Great news that I have to take to the King’s household. And most important I want companions (Psalms 45:13-15). However this moment of stepping in to this “calling” has come with a fair amount of cost and as stated in Beth’s blog, which I HIGHLY recommend you reading, there have been more moments than I could possibly express where the enemy has whispered defeat before I’ve even begun as well as working overtime to coerce me to just walk away and forget the whole mess. And then here she is again, this woman that’s just as human as me, reminding me that the calling, the anointing, the ministry, the deliverance, the healing….all of it comes from the One that is greater. From the Source of it all. Even as I have studied for tonight and have recognized that any thoughts I might have studied to “give out to others” were actually the very words God wanted to work in to my very own heart. I am holding on to dear life the scripture that God so graciously revealed this morning as I sat down in my “tizzie mess”.

“And on the basis of faith in His name, it is the name of Jesus which has strengthened this man whom you see and know.” Acts 3:16

Jesus is the One that brings the strength to weak hearts, not Glorious Daughters and most assuredly not anything I would ever say independent from Christ. So tonight as I finally step into the “calling” and launch the ministry Glorious Daughters I am simply stepping into the sandals of Jesus whose already been talking. He’s just come to a place where He needs my mouth and the expression of Glorious Daughters. He’s already in the middle of a number of works in His daughters. There is no perfect “talk”. No perfect thoughts strung together by any eloquence of my own manipulation that will bring life, wholeness, healing or restoration to a wounded heart. It’s just Jesus. That’s it. Period. I have to surrender and agree with the words that follow in Acts 4:13 “Now as they observed the confidence of Peter and John, and understood that they were uneducated and untrained men, they were marveling, and began to recognize them as having been with Jesus.” That’s it plain and simple, “recognizing them as having been with Jesus.” Oh, that He would be so merciful to us so that when we, as daughters, go out and deliver a message of Hope the greatest thing someone could say or feel was that they had walked with Jesus.

Thank you sweet King for the power that you have equipped so many courageous daughters before me to have all these years of ministry in expressing the wondrous gift of being your child. Thank you that they have never backed down or been silenced from sharing the deep residing Truth of your Healing Word. Thank you, thank you, and thank you for such a time as this you have called a beautiful collection of daughters to royalty. I am humbled to be your daughter, your servant, your vessel. Have your way with today and have your way with me. I love you Jesus. I love you my King. I adore you my Savior and I am surrendered to your goals and vision for Glorious Daughters.

In Jesus Name and with His Seal I will surrender to sharing the word of my testimony and allow the Blood of the Spotless Lamb to bring the healing. Praise you Jesus!!!!

2 comments:

  1. praying for you tonight, sure would love to be there... and wow on the word you got from Beth Moore back then but I know that you know that's a promise straight from Jesus himself, and the best/most mind offending part of it is that he was telling his guys that about the things he did! To the one who believes, they will do the same things he did and greater things still! I don't even know what it looks like to do greater things than raise the dead, heal the sick, cast out demons, bring sight to the blind, etc, but wow that makes me excited :) I love you my friend and so excited for what Jesus is doing in and through you!

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  2. Cari, what an amazing night! Thank you for being His humble and beautiful daughter! Thank you for allowing the Lord to use you, just like He did Beth Moore! I love you dearly and am counting down the days till the next Glorious Daughters!!

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